I had a terrible tummy pain yesterday. The pain was so intense I vomitted and lost strength to speak.
During the pain, I could not stop thinking and asking God why this kind of suffering fell on to me and wondered if I had done anything that caused this pain to fall on me.
However I felt God reminded me of a promise in the bible that it was not because what sin my family or I have committed, but this happened so that the glory of God may be revealed.
It was so much easier to blame on so many other things. When something terrible happens, we as humans like to find reasons and causes to justify the result. So we often start imagining and brainstorming the possiblities of the reasons that caused the problems. I did the same, during the pain, I started going over my family members and myself and guessed if any of us have dobe anything that caused God to anger hence rain down punishment on me.
My conversations with God became honest and straightforward during my pain. I began to ask God questions about life and reflected some of the things I have done or thought about recently.
In the pain, I tried to test myself if I could worship God and say that God is still good even if my physical suffering was great. To be honest, it was not easy, but it was not impossible. The power of worship was so great I experienced God in an intimate way during that time. I was desperate and God revealed to me in a very special way.
New revelation on the power of worship-I was revived in a new way at night as I committed myself to simply worshipping God and declaring His goodness. It was such a refreshing experience. I felt like I was being fully charged, immediately my heart changed, my attitude changed and I was so energetic I stayed awake until 5 in the morning!
As I was in pain, I felt so weak I had no strength to get up from the floor to reach my bed. At that point, I suddenly realized that the ability to walk and stand is a big gift from God. Afterward as the pain released, I was so thankful that I could get up from bed and stand and realized how many things I have taken for granted in my life.
There are so many things I want to thank God for during this seemingly pessimistic incident. God used this situation to teach me things that I normally would not think or take notice. More to that, I lost 2kgs because of this. Hehe.....
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