I used to be a person who liked to take control of everything in my life. I always tried my best and expected the result to turn out the way I wanted. When things did not turn out as well as I expected, I could get very very disappointed and blamed myself really harshly. I was very strict to myself and put a lot of pressure on myself. Failure to me was basically unacceptable and something that was hard to take in.
At one point, it became so serious that I totally lost my confidence and self-esteem. I tried to push myself, however, no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't reach the point I wanted. I became so disappointed about myself and began to question my value and ability. During the time, I gave myself even greater pressure to reform. I thought I could change everything, I thought I could get back to the standard I was at, but things did not turn out that way.
The reason was because my heart was sick and I could not concentrate on the things I was doing. I gave myself so much pressure, the things I was doing became mandatory tasks instead of something I could enjoy. All I felt was only disappointment, condemnation and pressure. Obviously it is hard to gain long term achievement if one does not understand the essence of the task or enjoy it. And it was very true in my case.
I experienced so much pressure and anxiety all because I only believed in self-power. I believed if I tried hard, I would no doubt achieve. I plainly believed if I sowed more, I would definitely reap more. I didn't know there would be so much disturbance and uncertainty that could stop me from reaping much. Hence, I became hysterical and all the time worried about the coming of failure.
After "marrying" Jesus, I slowly learned to put my trust in God. Learning to put trust in someone else wasn't an easy task for me. However, when I did take action to put my trust in God, I started to become relieved, light-hearted and felt a sense of freedom and joy in my heart. Little by little, I also learned to refrain myself from self-condemning. Worries, anxiety and pressure then greatly reduced.
As I said, learning to put my trust in God was not an easy task. However it became easier when I started to learn of His character and faithfulness. When I learned that His faithfulness endures forever, I became a little bit more willing to put my trust in Him. When His promises came true, again I put a little more trust in Him. When I realised that what He says in the Bible and what I experienced in reality matched perfectly, my faith in Him again grew a little deeper.
Our walk with God is a journey and a process of growth. There are definitely ups and downs, but when you look back how much you have walked and what God has done all throughout, you will realise that every step is worth the effort.
It's just so awesome to have a God who we can trust fully, who we can be absolutely sure that His promises for us will never fail.
It's time to let go of your control of your life and let God be the steering wheel of your life. It's ok to be weak, because our God is strong. It is true in the life of the people in the Bible, and it will also be true in you and my life.
Remember to do your best, and God will do the rest.
Are you willing to take the step and experience this wonderful joy and freedom?
At one point, it became so serious that I totally lost my confidence and self-esteem. I tried to push myself, however, no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't reach the point I wanted. I became so disappointed about myself and began to question my value and ability. During the time, I gave myself even greater pressure to reform. I thought I could change everything, I thought I could get back to the standard I was at, but things did not turn out that way.
The reason was because my heart was sick and I could not concentrate on the things I was doing. I gave myself so much pressure, the things I was doing became mandatory tasks instead of something I could enjoy. All I felt was only disappointment, condemnation and pressure. Obviously it is hard to gain long term achievement if one does not understand the essence of the task or enjoy it. And it was very true in my case.
I experienced so much pressure and anxiety all because I only believed in self-power. I believed if I tried hard, I would no doubt achieve. I plainly believed if I sowed more, I would definitely reap more. I didn't know there would be so much disturbance and uncertainty that could stop me from reaping much. Hence, I became hysterical and all the time worried about the coming of failure.
After "marrying" Jesus, I slowly learned to put my trust in God. Learning to put trust in someone else wasn't an easy task for me. However, when I did take action to put my trust in God, I started to become relieved, light-hearted and felt a sense of freedom and joy in my heart. Little by little, I also learned to refrain myself from self-condemning. Worries, anxiety and pressure then greatly reduced.
As I said, learning to put my trust in God was not an easy task. However it became easier when I started to learn of His character and faithfulness. When I learned that His faithfulness endures forever, I became a little bit more willing to put my trust in Him. When His promises came true, again I put a little more trust in Him. When I realised that what He says in the Bible and what I experienced in reality matched perfectly, my faith in Him again grew a little deeper.
Our walk with God is a journey and a process of growth. There are definitely ups and downs, but when you look back how much you have walked and what God has done all throughout, you will realise that every step is worth the effort.
It's just so awesome to have a God who we can trust fully, who we can be absolutely sure that His promises for us will never fail.
It's time to let go of your control of your life and let God be the steering wheel of your life. It's ok to be weak, because our God is strong. It is true in the life of the people in the Bible, and it will also be true in you and my life.
Remember to do your best, and God will do the rest.
Are you willing to take the step and experience this wonderful joy and freedom?
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