As you read previous entries, you may have realised that I had been stressed. That is because two days ago, I found out that I received a FAIL for one of the subjects last semester. In disbelief, I emailed the subject coordinator, but he didn't reply immediately. I was left really stressed and worried as I am about to go to Japan for exchange and ready to finish my last semester there. Who knows why things don't go the way we planned. I thought a lot, I was agitating over the fact that I will have to rush back to Melbourne for this subject and spend another $2000+ for it. I even blamed myself for not doing the assessment well enough to allow this to happen. I was also afraid to tell this BAD news to my parents and knew if I told them, they would be quite angry and disappointed.
The stress accumulated so much that I could hardly breathe and felt quite sick. I couldn't even concentrate on doing anything. I continued to watch Korean and Japanese dramas, but they all didn't help. I was still stressed and couldn't stop thinking about the consequences leading to that failure. I also kept reading the bible trying to find some comfort God could give me. I can say not until I read God's word did I feel peace and calm and stopped thinking about the matter. It was consuming so much that I felt I could not take it anymore. Amazingly the second I put my bible away, I fell asleep straightaway and slept as peacefully as a baby until this morning.
Matthew 11:28 "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."
Matthtew 6:23 "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."
John 15:7 "If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. "
These are such comforting verses for me as they remind me of God's promises and the problem tested me my faith towords the promises He has in the bible. During trouble, it is easy to doubt whether or not they are really from God or if they apply to our lives.
I have to say, it's not easy to trust during difficult times, however, trusting God in a difficult time is the most important attitude and it gives us strength and real comfort.
Psalm 46:10 "Be still, and know that I am God"
When my heart is feeling restless, I always think of this verse. I shall not worry and need to acknowledge that God is God and He is the God and the only way to comfort me and turn my situation around. So long I let my burden go, and submit it to Him.
Thank God that at the end I received an email informing me that I actually passed the subject. Although it was just a mix up, but it was such a wonderful lesson for me to learn to rely on God and turn to Him for help, praise Him even the situation seemed hard and forever hopeless.
The stress accumulated so much that I could hardly breathe and felt quite sick. I couldn't even concentrate on doing anything. I continued to watch Korean and Japanese dramas, but they all didn't help. I was still stressed and couldn't stop thinking about the consequences leading to that failure. I also kept reading the bible trying to find some comfort God could give me. I can say not until I read God's word did I feel peace and calm and stopped thinking about the matter. It was consuming so much that I felt I could not take it anymore. Amazingly the second I put my bible away, I fell asleep straightaway and slept as peacefully as a baby until this morning.
Matthew 11:28 "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."
Matthtew 6:23 "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."
John 15:7 "If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. "
These are such comforting verses for me as they remind me of God's promises and the problem tested me my faith towords the promises He has in the bible. During trouble, it is easy to doubt whether or not they are really from God or if they apply to our lives.
I have to say, it's not easy to trust during difficult times, however, trusting God in a difficult time is the most important attitude and it gives us strength and real comfort.
Psalm 46:10 "Be still, and know that I am God"
When my heart is feeling restless, I always think of this verse. I shall not worry and need to acknowledge that God is God and He is the God and the only way to comfort me and turn my situation around. So long I let my burden go, and submit it to Him.
Thank God that at the end I received an email informing me that I actually passed the subject. Although it was just a mix up, but it was such a wonderful lesson for me to learn to rely on God and turn to Him for help, praise Him even the situation seemed hard and forever hopeless.
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